3. Episodes of My Life in the Human Flesh

For you to feel stronger while reading these teachings that I am presenting to you, as well as you might feel the person of Jesus as the one who has come in the flesh amongst you, I will relate you something from my human life that has not been recorded in any other scripture.

Those of you who are familiar with the Revelation, called as The Urantia Book, might get a deeper description of both my life and my teachings for this portrayal of my life has been presented to you by the creatures superior to man. And it is due to them that you have a broader picture of my life two thousand years ago. But they did not dare to depict their Creator of the Universe as such who might also have negative traits even though they did say that I was born exactly the way all the other babies were born both prior to and after my birth on your world. I grew up and matured exactly the way all the other children grew up and matured before me and after me on your world. However, my life has been presented only as a collection of positive qualities since my very birth up to my very ascension to the Father “on the right.“ It was very rarely mentioned that my vigorous and inquisitive character caused problems to both my parents and my teachers at the synagogue school. But even in this case the problems I generated to them have been presented as such that look very innocent and pleasant to the reader.

However, while growing and maturing I experienced very similar problems as all the other children did. Being vigorous at the same time I was not only inquisitive but also hot-tempered as any other child of that age. Just because my parents were understanding and truly loved me that supplied them with a marvelous patience with me so that I did not take on such a path that would have led me far off along the wrong paths. I had plenty of inner power and was able not to place my own self above the others only when my childhood was already in full swing, when I reached a higher level of understanding of my environment. My contacts with Joseph and Mary were not that innocent as some of you might take them. I also had the moments of my anger outbursts once my mind was unable to understand as to why my parents did try to look upon me as some special member of our large family as against my other brothers and sisters. All this would seem to me unfair and I did resist it. I did resist it from within and then would start to resist from without by actions. But I was doing that not because this bigger attention to me would be disturbing or unpleasant but because it did harm my other brothers and sisters. And this I was taking as my own offense; and that was being felt by own inner self.

My parents, either Joseph or Mary, did not explain to me anything about my some higher mission on this world that had been revealed to my mother by Gabriel who had appeared to her even before my birth. Therefore my ego would take offence if they tried to pamper me more than their other children. And the role of the mommy‘s molly-coddle was absolutely unacceptable to me. Thus my inner self would flare up to reject being treated like this by my parents, especially on the part of my mother. It was obvious that it did hurt and offend them. However, at that time, I was feeling that I had to behave exactly that way. Such was the leading to my mind by my own self that was not yet matured at all. Therefore this impulsiveness of mine caused a considerable pain and uncertainty to my parents. They were expecting from me some out-of-the-ordinary attention to them and an exceptional interest in God since all their life was filled up with the message brought up to my mother by Gabriel that I would be that promised child who would reveal light to all those who would receive it. And my parents, as well as all the other Jews of that time, had a deep imprint, even in their sub-consciousness, formed up throughout generations, of expecting a Messiah who had to liberate their nation from the gentile oppressors.           

Thus, in any family, in any generation, once there are more children than one, their parents must never share their love by different portions. It must be shared equally with all. And there must be shared this type of love with a child as if that child, even in a large family, were the only child in all the family.

All, and each, of us are being loved with this sort of love by that Great Source and Center that you call God.

And it is only after having felt His love within oneself that is possible to share one‘s love with one‘s children equally as if all these children, and each of them taken separately, would be the only child and the most beloved child in all the family. And exactly the same approach must be taken to each child of the large family.