137. Patience
Your knowledge of the reality is just beginning. Therefore, you must be happy that your Guide and Teacher is the Father himself thru His spirit, His own fragment, indwelling your mind and named as the Thought Adjuster so that you could understand His operation easier. It is by this method, only with the love vibrations, that the Father is adjusting your thoughts, the thoughts of each of you so that they would ever more correspond to the level designed for you, that they would become ever brighter and purer. Therefore, His fragment, spirit, that Mystery Monitor who is not seen to you but who can be felt and experienced in certain states of your opening up to Him during the prayer, during a living communion with the Father, helps you achieve such levels of your thought adjustment with the vibrations of the Father that far transcend the level of your richest imagination.
Therefore, do not hasten to call your other brethren insane or even by still sharper words if they are relating you such experiences, presenting to you orally or in writing such teachings that you cannot yet understand in full. It is from their own Mystery Monitor that they receive these teachings. The time shall come when all the people shall talk with the Father in their own thoughts, in their own words since a very early age. And nobody shall get surprised at this communion. Therefore, have patience with your generalizations and ultimate conclusions and wait until the society becomes more spiritual.
People‘s haste to experience everything as soon and as intensive as possible is the manifestation of their animal and lower selves in a material life. One‘s spiritual living provides a very gradual and very patient development of one‘s own divine self, devoted to the Father. This is a very intensive, but simultaneously very consistent and even imperceptible, development of one‘s self. And to turn this process into impatience or into one‘s striving for sensing and experiencing everything at once is nothing else but a violation of this very process.
While performing such a job, in the flesh, as charging an automobile battery, you know that it is charged better and more to the full once it is being charged with a lower current for a longer period rather than with a higher current for a shorter time. Meanwhile, one‘s spiritual development provides the charge of one‘s self more to the full while pondering and considering what is even that very spiritual development of the creature. And no shortcuts can be in this process. You are as that battery you can be charged as much as is your capacity. The difference between a material battery and your spiritual battery is that your battery is your living self who is expanding and developing its spiritual capacity during the time of its spiritual growth. The same self but its capacity can grow infinitely. One‘s spiritual capacity has no limits.
And the bigger the impatience, the bigger the haste with the generalization and ultimate conclusions the smaller is the spiritual capacity of that creature, at that definite moment. However, it might be expanded. Therefore, any ultimate conclusion cannot be ultimate because very soon it shall be merely more specified, expanded, or maybe even denied. And it is the only way that guarantees that your current conclusions can also be correct if you submit yourself to the leading of your own Mystery Monitor from within and do not resist him as he is adjusting your thoughts while you are asleep, while your consciousness is disconnected., and the Thought Adjuster is operating thru your sub-consciousness when its channel is not occupied by the dream visions.
It is then that your conclusions will be ever more correct, even though not ultimate, but they will always be directed one way: to an ever bigger tilt towards the Father and an ever greater devotion to Him and an ever deeper trust in Him. Then your conclusions and generalizations will not be a hasty fruit of your lower and impatient self but rather an ever subtler look, thru the eyes of the Father, upon a wider horizon of the reality of the true soul-child who is ever more revealing and manifesting himself, the horizon that is inaccessible and therefore inconceivable and imperceptible to a hasting self.
Patience is one of the main qualities of the character of a will creature. One‘s haste can never supply a firm knowledge and a reliable understanding in any sphere of one‘s activity. Patience does not mean prolonging one‘s activity and delaying it. Patience is an aspiration to knowing all the aspects of that activity to make it not only understandable but also close to one‘s heart due to one‘s ever deeper knowledge of and experience within it. Patience is the quality of one‘s character opposite to impatience that operates as a poison to any activity because impatience focuses all the creature‘s attention to the result of the activity rather than to the activity itself. By aiming at the outcome without understanding the process of the activity and without feeling the meaning of the experience of that activity it is impossible to reach an expected result either. Therefore you must develop your own patient attitude to everything you are performing. You must always and everywhere perform any job in such a way that it can be done that well as your capabilities allow you to do it. You must give up this attitude: This will be o.k. O.K. is only the way you can do it the best at that definite time.
However, to be able to do the task you need to do you have to focus all your attention to the performance of this very task rather than to its outcome of any quality. Patience has a kindred feature that you call as zeal. The one who is performing everything diligently that one is also patient. Therefore, try to do all the jobs zealously and then your patience shall grow too. Meanwhile, your diligence is developed by your interest in that task that has been given to you to be implemented. If you show no interest in the job you need to do you shall be trying to do it as fast as possible. And that means that your diligence shall have no room to bloom out since all your attention shall be directed to the achievement of the quickest result rather than to the performance of that very job that requires your zeal.
Patience transcends zeal in that it is an all embracing character quality that is manifesting itself always, even when there is no need to carry out any task. Suppose you need to wait for a bus in the station. And once it is necessary to wait longer an impatient man might lose his good mood, start feeling anxiety over wasting too much time, or he might even generate some thoughts of his own that might begin to irritate him. Meanwhile, the one who is patient, even while waiting for the bus finds some meaningful occupation for himself, by watching the environment, by talking with himself within his mind, and the one who has faith by talking with the Father or with me.
Patience not only soothes the character that has a tendency to pulsate, boil, and to be restless all the time but also allows that very character to become stronger and forged so that its master, your true self, could know himself better. A patient man analyzes himself more than an impatient one. A patient man weighs his actions more than an impatient one. Therefore, a patient man might be compared with such a person who is taking up a task like being prepared for it better. And even in case of failing to perform it as well as he has expected he does not get irritated because of this failure.
Patience is the main field of your character development. It is only by regulating it that you can build up and turn stronger the character of your divine self and become more like the Father.
Can you imagine what would become of the creation, of you, each, if the Father were not patient? Do you think that the Father who is the Source and Center of perfection, while seeing you so reluctant to do your jobs, with such a difficulty making yourselves do anything zealously without any reward, and seeing you perform these jobs not that perfectly as He would desire you would perform them were He not patient would He put up with this sort of attitude and living of yours? However, since He is the Source of Perfection He perfectly comprehends that now you are just making your very first step to your own perfection, and you shall reach perfection only when you stand in His own presence on
Therefore, you must submit yourselves to the leading of the Father‘s spirit from within to be able to develop this trait of your character – patience. You must also be patient with your brethren even as the Father is patient with you. Maybe some of their actions or attitudes might even arouse your irritation but you must remain patient with them. Even though you encounter different situations in your life do not lose patience in any of them. It is only a patient acting that shall bring you a wonderful reward – your firm character that has been ground by yourselves and that is shining like a gem, and it shall help you strive for your similarity to the Father during your all and long journey-career to Paradise to the Father.
A patient character is not only diligence while doing a task it is also a protection from erring. When the one who is patient is lingering and thinking the one who is impatient is acting having not yet comprehended the situation and due to this having not analyzed it. Without comprehending the ambience there is a very slim probability the action performed shall match the requirements of the situation in the best way. Therefore, patience protects you from an additional suffering that is caused by your erring. Meanwhile an additional suffering is still reducing already that little patience of an impatient man therefore his next actions shall again be hasty merely to resort to any means to correct this situation as soon as possible without even pondering that instead of being corrected it gets even more complicated. And this chain of erroneous decisions causes the chain of erroneous actions, and this one in its turn produces the chain of one‘s life suffering that sooner or later leads this person to illnesses; and very often to his premature death as well.
And if the life suffering has still pushed such an impatient man to direct his impatience against the Father there is a high probability that this man also signs under the verdict of the painful death of his own physical body. And even such a verdict that shall be confirmed by God as well. And after this man‘s revolt against the Father and after the natural death of his body there shall be no resurrection to this mortal in a higher form – in the soul form with this very same and living self. Such a resurrection shall not be provided to this rebelling mortal who is accusing the Father of all his suffering and therefore who has decided not to walk on the Father‘s path that is being offered. And who has made the ultimate decision.
Patience is such a marvelous quality of one‘s character that a person possessing it shall never accuse God of his own difficult condition but rather he shall be praying for still more patience to live thru this situation.
Therefore, impatience is very dangerous to anyone because it truly makes one‘s material life more difficult, turns it into a permanent running race against one‘s time while striving for shortcutting it all the time. However, on the path to the Father on
However, the most important thing is that patience being one of the qualities of the divine character is bringing man ever closer to the Father since such a man is patiently seeking his similarity to the Father and trying to commune with Him. And even though he fails to hear the Father for a long time all the same he is patiently striving for a living relationship with the Father within him. And patience is always crowning this bond with the Father.
The building up of patience can never harm anyone. It is only thanks to patience that you overcome the problems that arise on your path as tasks for you, as for a child of the Father, in the course of a testing term in this earthly life of yours.