139. Do not Waste a Single Moment

Each wasted year when you do not care for the meaning and quality of your life not only makes your own living more difficult and deteriorates your health, even though you might not yet feel it for long, but also distances you from the Father even though He is within your own self. Therefore, do not signify the flames of the outer fireworks and salutes that so colorfully light up a New-Year-night sky that you begin to feel joy like little children. Your New Year must be within you rather than without. You must measure the New Year by how much better and more merciful, more loving and serving you have become rather than by how much more you have done. Therefore, you must meet any New Year by having your bigger spiritual height and a more mature self. And no colorful, even the brightest, outer fireworks shall substitute for what you are experiencing within while growing with the Father, within the Father, and sensing the Father within yourself.      

It is only this yardstick that shows you are not wasting your time. Moreover, you are cherishing it and using it in a very meaningful way. This is the only gift that you can present to the Father; all, and each, of you. And this gift is never boring Him. He also wants to and does give you a gift, a meaningful eternity so that it would be better for you. Therefore, you must also begin to sense the meaning not only of the whole year but also of each moment of the day. However, as long as your eyes shall marvel the lights of only the outer fireworks without giving a thought to the fireworks of the inner Father‘s spiritual love, placed within you, that long you shall only be wasting your time by accumulating the experience of a quantitative living only without realizing what an incredible beauty does exist within you. Merely not yet experienced by you and therefore seeming to you unreal.

You can feel the value and meaning of each minute only when you establish a relationship with the Father for it is the Father and the bond with Him that provide the meaning to all the creatures of all the creation for it is the Father that is The Source of Meaning of the creation. Therefore, anyone enjoying an ability to set up a relationship and keeping a live communion with the Father begins to feel the meaning and its sweetness. However, for you, the lowest of the will creatures, being in the flesh, it is almost impossible in your present form to begin to feel The Source of Spirits who is all spiritual. But, to make this task for you easier the Father has bestowed upon you, each of you, Himself, His own fragment, His spirit, Thought Adjuster inhabiting him in the mind of your material form. Therefore, being conscious, you can both feel and experience what it is His spiritual love and leading from within, beauty and mercy, service and altruism. And these feelings shall never vanish from your experience whenever you open up to the Father being present within you. It is thanks to the Father that you can feel the meaning of each moment. It is due to Him that you can gradually approach, with the feelings of your spiritualized material mind, such concepts as eternity and infinity, even though being unable to comprehend and embrace them, but ever deeper and more truly looking upon them as upon your destiny, and assessing the moments of your present life in relation to their quality rather than to their quantity.           

It is this that will show to you, personally to you, not to others, level of your consciousness development while assessing the meaning of each moment of your life, even though the others will also notice it to a small extent. And it is only you, personally each of you, and the Father within you that will be able to understand it. The others shall not be able to understand it for their spiritual level and experience will be different and individual though equally unique and unrepeatable and equally meaningful even as yours.

Therefore each of you shall be able to assess personally yourself only.

However, a minor part of the meaning of the life moments of your other brethren will also be felt by those of you who will have already opened up to the Father and, due to this, will have experienced not only the meaning of the similar moments in their life but also established a relationship with the Father, as a living link with the other brethren. And it is this living relationship with the Father that shall enable you to sense more profoundly what your merely material mind would not be capable of doing. It is capable of doing it only thanks to the Father‘s spirit and only after having established a living bond with him.

Thus, in order that every moment of your living, every episode would acquire its meaning and would provide you a full pleasure and satisfaction you have to commune with the Father thru His fragment, His spirit, indwelling you. And this bond is real and living. It is always accessible to you whenever you desire this sincere and live communion with the Father. He is together with you, even within you, during every moment. Your relationship with the Father depends upon your personal desire and decision. The Father is always opened up to you. He is patiently awaiting your opening up to Him. Therefore, everything is in the hands of each of you. The decision as to when and where you shall begin to feel the meaning of each moment of your life and start assessing your each action in relation to this sort of meaningfulness that shall be passed to you by this living relationship with the Father can be made by you only; personally by each of you.    

And this decision shall change your present life to this type of living that shall start providing you a sensation of pleasure and you shall begin to feel a taste of living itself that you have not yet felt since you are too much preoccupied with the carrying out the interests of your egoistic self. And this sort of your current living brings you a lot of tension, shock, and suffering while the moments of joy are so rare that you are actually leading the life of a real martyr. For the Father, as well as for me, it is very painful to see you that suffering and striving for the material pleasures only and for the respite from tension by satisfying, again, your other material interests.    

And when we see you walk to the opposite direction, to that side where there are even bigger experiences of tension and suffering in store, where your mind shall experience still more stresses and short moments of relaxation from it, it is very painful for us to see your spiritual blindness and your unwillingness to recover your spiritual eyesight. You are demonstrating an enviable steadfastness while striving for the material victories yet a deplorable ignorance and shortsightedness by failing to understand that all this is leading you to a new suffering and to a dangerous life that borders upon your complete vanishing from the creation after the death of your material body.       

By making no attempt to discover the meaning of each moment you are running a big risk. And this risk shall never pay back.

After having recovered your spiritual sight you shall also regret that so many years of your life have been wasted in vain without giving you anything. You were just skidding in one place like a car on ice even though there was a box of sand at hand merely you did not notice it and carried on pressing on the accelerator just to move forward; but in vain. The car was not moving forward but rather, little by little, sliding backwards. Therefore, stop being that blind and look around whether there is something that might help you start moving forward.

Your present attitude to wasting your time is absolutely acceptable to you because you do not envision any other manner of spending your time. You are learning from your parents, friends, and the environment. However, you do not even give a thought to it that they might not understand, either, that this sort of spending one‘s time is not meaningful. And it is you who might be the ones to cut that hapless Gordian knot. You can be those who shall start assessing time from the vantage-point of its quality rather than quantity. Assessing it by how you have acted rather than by how much you have acted during the same time. If, during the same time, you were trying to act for the benefit of the whole pursuing a personal noble motive, it means that you were not wasting your time in vain.    

However, if all the time merely a selfish motive is prevailing in mind – I do the job merely because I am paid for – in this case all the work time is nothing but a waste of time. It is just a wearing and tormenting serfdom to your soul and mind. And it is your motive that determines your attitude to both work and leisure: whether it is just a waste of time or a meaningful development of one‘s self.   

Any manner of spending your leisure once it is dominated by alcohol is both a waste of your time, irrespective of the fact that you are experiencing a joy at that moment, and a bigger tormenting of your higher and spiritual self in captivity. The evidence of that is given to you by your poor condition the next morning, by a moral anxiety over some thoughtless actions performed, and by a desire that it would not have happened at all. It shows that your actions have been of the type to have suppressed your inner and true self that much that now even your lower and animal self is feeling bitterness and anxiety rather than the pleasure of yesterday. It shows that after your brain has stopped being affected by the outer narcotizing substances your elevated condition has vanished and that the high vibrations of your consciousness are totally out of balance and you are not elevated but rather downcast within. It shows that your time spent in that manner has been wasted irrespective of even your very high spirits while you have been spending it that way.      

And there is just the opposite feeling after one‘s time has been spent meaningfully. You are experiencing the state of an inner joy. It does not cause, in any way, an anxiety or disillusion, anguish or regret for the time spent in that manner. There are no reproaches to either yourself or others. There is a feeling of an inner bliss that the time has given you new experiences that provide joy and bliss to your soul. And there is a desire to extend that moment even more, to repeat it even in a deeper manner. The bliss is emerging because the soul is sensing the wonderful vibrations of the moments experienced and it desires to prolong them. The soul is experiencing a sensation of lightness and elevation. It desires to experience this feeling of fullness even more so that it could bloom out even stronger in its growth.   

This feeling is present because the soul is recognizing the vibrations of the Father‘s spirit sent to it and radiated to it, thru your mind, and it is also replaying, in its memory, these very vibrations experienced in your mind during the leisure time. Therefore, the state of the bliss is as if prolonged to it and the soul does desire to experience additional experiences that would produce a similar state of the bliss, only more intensively at that.    

And these high vibrations being felt and experienced by the soul make it nobler and more sensitive and even strengthen and develop it. Therefore after this leisure spent meaningfully the soul is feeling stronger as against its state prior to spending the leisure moment. It is grateful for the moments experienced during that leisure period. And it thanks the Father for them for it has been His will that the soul would feel these meaningful vibrations of the Father during the leisure time experiences. It shows that the leisure time experiences corresponded to the high frequency of the vibrations of the Father and due to this they were developing the soul. These experiences were liberating one‘s higher self rather than even more enslaving it within the grasp of the domination of one‘s lower and animal self.    

And while assessing the meaning of your life moments you are always in possession of an unerring measure – your soul‘s relationship with the Father‘s spirit that is within you. And whenever you begin to feel deep in your soul a blissful satisfaction in relation to some episode, in relation to one or another moment of your living, in relation to one or another action performed it shows that the moment spent, the action performed has been building up your soul and at the same time has been meaningful to your higher self, to your true, and not the animal, self. 

And the deeper and more often you commune with the Father the better you begin to assess the meaning of your life time and even perceive how eventually to stop wasting your time on satisfying the quantitative interests and to start striving for the implementation of the qualitative moments. And your ability to make a distinction between the quantitative and qualitative moments gives evidence to your spiritual stride. And it shall ever get stronger if you stride. Any step – both material and spiritual – gets stronger while only making it.     

And it will not be long before you will consciously realize that it is this qualitative life of yours that can only be your true life. It is just this living that gives a bliss to your soul and delivers you from the material suffering and the moments of anxiety. Therefore, you do not desire any more to get back to the quantitative moments of living for any material wealth of the world.   

Now you already understand as to how to use the material wealth, already in possession and the one you carry on earning, for the benefit of the whole and at the same time convert it into a qualitative and spiritual wealth in a material form. And you are capable of doing all this merely due to the fact that you allowed your soul to be liberated from the dominance of your lower human and animal self so that it could freely grow and turn into your true and higher self bestowed by the Father in the form of your personality with its potential throughout eternity that has already managed to distinguish wasting of time from the meaningful moments of living.